I don’t know if any one noticed that I have been a little M.I.A. lately.
This past week has been so stressful and emotional.
Little over a week ago I found out that my nineteen year old, unemployed, uninsured and very immature daughter is pregnant. She was over a week late so I made her take a home test. It was positive. Not a total shock because she has been pretty much living with her boyfriend for the past three months, sadly I think it is all too predictable.
Next I called around and found a near by teen pregnancy center. We had to wait a few days for their late night because I work during the day and I took her in for another test and prayed that it would prove the first one wrong. When the second showed positive, I broke down. At that point no matter what she chose to do, I knew there were some very hard days were ahead.
It took her about four days to decide that she is going to have the baby.
So, the past couple of days have been filled with phone calls and making appointments to find government programs and a doctor.
I guess just knowing what we are dealing with, I feel some what better then I did a week ago. She will be twenty years old by the time she has the baby, three years older then I was when I had her. My mother and grandmother were also very young.
I was just really hoping that both my girls would not be following this cycle in our family of young, unprepared mothers. Even though I know things always work out. It is such a hard road!
Oh wow, she’s pregnant? I am in shock a bit. Then again, she is 19 and legally an adult. It’s still hard to imagine that you will be a grandmother. Let us hope her boyfriend is a real man and stands up to help. Hmph!
HUGS from me to you, toots.